| By the way,.. Do you wanna know what a Real Broken Heart feels like? Well, first of all, you have to love someone with all your heart first of course. Then when things fall, it's like losing A Loved One that passed away. You're always grieving over the fact that they're gone. Sometimes you get the Stupid Idea of wanting to go where they went. Guess it goes through all the denying/stages and so on. You're always still thinking of them here and there, wondering where they really are now and how they're doing. Sometimes it feels like they're still around, somewhere near, watching over you. The only thing is, They're still Alive though and Not Dead. x] "You can either grow Stronger or Weaker from A Loved One's Passing Away". I'll say that goes for 'Falling in Love' too. As for me, Everytime I Fall in Love..It seems to Break me each time. But in it all, I only get Stronger. . |KAO| Your kind of love is Forbidden. x] A love I tried to avoid from the beginning, but I just couldn't avoid it. You've taught me so much. Because of you, I came to know and feel so many things I've never seen and felt before. Because of you, I'm able to think for myself and follow my own heart. Because of you, I'm able be strong. Because of you, I felt reality. We hurt each other so many times, unintentionally, and had alot of our ups and downs. We had so much to say, yet, we just let it all build up inside of us. But still, that didn't stop us then! So I'm glad we held on and made it as far as we had. My love for you was pure and true. I'll always remember the Promise we made, even though it's not meant to be kept anymore. So thank you for ever making such a Promise with me! Sometimes, I pass the places where we've gone to and those places remind me of you and me. Remember when we sat by the lake, on top of the hill, under the tree. I wished that time would stop there. But time moves unstopable, and now that peaceful moment only exists as a far away memory. I have alot to apologize for, as the same from you to me, but we know it and don't have to say it. I understand your reason for doing what you did so please don't blame yourself for it. Also, I hated how people always looked down on you so low. I hope you didn't hate yourself so much for it. I'm sorry I left without a word. I'm sorry I can't look you in the eyes and tell you how I really feel. I'm sorry we lost interest in each other as time went on. I'll remember you the way you are, the kao I knew differently from how everyone else knew me. I hope, no matter how much I change, that you'll always remember me the way you knew me differently from everyone else knew me. You're dating my long-ago friend and I just don't want to come inbetween it. I don't want to be stuck in some sick triangle. So let go of me, don't hold onto it anymore even if it comes back to you once in a while. Be happy. I have alot to thank you for and you already know so, I won't say anymore here. Remember what I told you.."If you won't take anything seriously then your life will just be one big joke that you made for yourself." I hope you know what I meant by that now. |JIX| I'm glad I ran into you in an Unreal place and then met you in the Real place. x] Our relationship was kinda unreal, but it had its own reality as well. Your kind of love is Friendship. You've taught me what friendship is and that it's okay to keep a friend for once in my life. Because of you, I'm able tell true friends from friends. Because of you, I'm able be strong for the rest of my life now and move on from the struggles of this world. Because of you, I remember who I am and those dreams I left behind. Also, I've never met someone so much like me and it might be crazy to say, but it feels like I've known you all of my life, as if you should have already been an old friend. I thank you for alot of things and out of all the guys I've met, you're the only one that ever made me feel more in place. I'm not really so lost now. I'm glad that we're still good friends and glad to know you'll still always be there for me. I still want to travel the world with you someday, if not then, at least Thank you for ever mentioning you wanted to see the Stone Henges/the world with me. I'm sorry you met and came to know such a lost and broken girl like me. I'm sorry I shared so much of my sorrows and pain to you. I hope someday you'll come to know the brighter side of me. Even though I didn't really know you personally, I admit I really did like you and still do. Even though I like you, its good enough to have you as just a friend and nothing more. You simply lost interest in me and it's okay, I understood. |YENG| You're a good friend that I've actually met in person. We met at my first cousin's hmong wedding, couldn't get our eyes off each other for some reason. You had a crush, and then I found out. I pushed you away, but then in the summer, we kinda got..together. We had so little time and everything just wouldn't go the way we wanted it to. It just didn't work out between us so don't blame yourself so much for breaking up with me. Although we tried to avoid pushing it all too fast, we ended up pushing it all to fast. Anyways, you're a good friend and I'm sorry if I was pushing you away. You have your own problems, I have my own problems. We didn't really know each other well enough. You're still my 'moon in the sky' and I hope I'm still your 'stars in the sky'. I'm glad you found a girl at where you are and I hope things work out for the two of you. Thanks for still being there to hear me out. Don't fall for a girl like me, I don't have a strong-willed heart to love anymore. We'll always be good friends better than strangers. --- |ED YIA| You're the good Friend that I''ve never met in person yet x] The good friend that my cousin, Robin, introduced me to. We talk here and there and it's really nice talking to you. I'm pretty sure we'll meet someday. I hope your girlfriend didn't get the wrong idea about you and me. It made me uncomfortable talking to you, knowing that your girlfriend might get the wrong idea and get angry at you for it. So I purposely didn't pick up at times and thanks for not calling anymore. Also, you're like a big brother, kinda like what Robin is to me. Thanks for caring and always calling me up to make sure that I was really okay. Even though we're out of contact now, I'll still remember you as that good friend. . |
....people these days..gives me the creeps *shivers*
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